Saw my first porn when I was nine
at Bucky’s house he found it
hidden by his dad on top of the entertainment center  

Yeah let’s watch I said grinning so hard I almost broke a couple of teeth
Shhh he said inserting the VHS tape into the VCR
No way no way no way I thought
Finally I get to know what sex is  

A brunette on all fours her tits swaying violently yelling out
Yeah fuck me fuck me fuck me O babe
A dude a gross hairy dude pulling and thrusting behind her as if he were trying to free her head from between two balusters on a staircase and then shove it back in

groaning there was lots of groaning
but I had heard that before though usually on the nights my parents went to the Legion  

We should put this back before my parents get home
Okay lets go outside after that
Yeah hold on I have to rewind it to where my dad last watched it  

I didn’t think of that video again after we went outside to play
I never even bragged about it to my other friends
but I never forgot what that video taught me
about love about women about affection—all
three are fucked