I wanted to take him down.             Who is this guy? I had to take him down, he wasn’t listening to me,             What did I want him to do? to my authority. I am not a police officer, but still I took him down. Knee in the small of his back hands wrenching his left hand toward the back             Why did his pain bring me joy? of his neck. He wouldn’t listen to me.   Another man walks up.             Is he in charge? What the hell are you doing? He asks. You’re hurting him, he says. I know. I said               smiling.   He will listen to me   now.   You can’t go around hurting everyone you can’t control he screamed! I looked down at the hand I was               breaking             mine.